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Notes on Writing Religion and the Molly Chase Series

Finally, seven months after its release, someone has objected to the religious content of In Pieces. Before publication, I had thought it would be the first complaint I’d hear. That it took seven whole months is proof that I’m small potatoes.

Don’t feel sorry for me. We are all free to like or dislike a book, the religious critique doesn’t bother me, and I am not here to debate a reader—that would be silly. But the fact that I finally did receive that criticism reminded me that I’ve been meaning to blog about religion in fiction generally, and religion in the Molly Chase series specifically. I’ve been thinking through approaches and guiding principles, and I’m curious to know what y’all think.

No one likes “preachy” fiction. The workings of grace are mysterious, and our attempts to describe religious experience often fall flat, especially for readers outside the writer’s denominational soup pot. Authors are instead advised to depict religious experience at a slant, rather than directly, whenever possible. Doing so keeps the themes from reading on the nose.

But what do we do when we have a story about religious people? Who grapple with religious truths? Who experience religious awakenings? Who live within and react to the particularities of their religious culture? Whose beliefs shift or make demands and effect their choices and comprise the story’s plot? Do we ignore these stories all together, out of fear of writing preachy fiction?

Of course not. Many great novels take up religious subject matter. Novels like Brideshead Revisited, Kristin Lavransdatter, The Brothers Karamazov, Silence, anything by George Eliot…

…but I am no Evelyn Waugh or Sigrid Undset or Fyodor Dostoevsky or Shūsaku Endo or George Eliot. Therein lies the problem.

What to do?

Dostoyevsky's notes for Chapter 5 of The Brothers Karamazov (Wikipedia).

Let me pause to lay my cards on the table. I was raised in the Church of God and became a Catholic my senior year of college. While I was in the process of converting, I met my husband, a cradle Catholic and “revert,” or a fallen-away Catholic who returned to the faith. He is now a theologian and professor of Catholic studies at a Protestant college. (You can learn more about his story here.) I am not a bitter convert. I have nothing but love and gratitude for the people who taught me about Jesus and baptized me. I see my conversion as a continuation of the journey I began under their care. One Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of us all.

I say this not to downplay the real and painful divisions in the Church, but to emphasize that a person can embrace what is common to all Christians, in the hope of restoration and full communion, while holding to one’s own beliefs.

Despite my background, I never set out to tell a Protestant-to-Catholic conversion story. Conversions are notoriously tricky to write, and I was plenty annoyed when Josiah Robb decided this was his (and consequently Molly’s) path. I understand now why the story itself demands a conversion, but I was and continue to be uncomfortable writing it. In the early draft of what became In Pieces, I tiptoed around the subject, not wanting to annoy or upset future readers—it’s a subplot, after all, so no need to draw attention to it. Right?

This was the manuscript I submitted to WhiteFire Publishing at the end of 2019, several months before they—we—founded Chrism Press for Catholic and Orthodox Christian voices. WhiteFire serves a broad range of Christian audiences, yet I remained concerned that my book was too Catholic for them, even with my soft-shoe approach. Again, I’m a convert. I know both sides, and certain things simply do not translate across the Tiber.

Little did I expect WhiteFire to ask me to lean into the book’s Catholic themes.

Which makes sense! Better to write with boldness than to placate a hypothetical antagonistic reader, right? (I can hear my publisher’s voice right now: “Let the audience self-select!”) Yet I still wanted to write something that engaged, rather than enraged, non-Catholic readers. The Catholic viewpoint is as valid a storytelling viewpoint as any, but I wanted to avoid preaching to the choir. After some back-and-forth (“Are you sure?” “Yes, we’re sure”), I got to work.

These are the tactics I employed:

(1) I reframed the fundamental conflict as personal and familial rather than theological. Know thy genre: this is a story, not a theological treatise. (Zzzz…) I moved most of Josiah’s theological wrestling to the backstory so that he has but a handful of questions remaining when the book opens. The conflict instead centers on his relationship with his devout Congregationalist mother, Sarah Robb. He doesn’t want to disappoint or worry her. A reader may or may not care about the religious stakes, but family conflicts are universal.

(2) I developed Sarah Robb’s character to ensure she wasn’t a straw man. With the help of my writing group—all Protestants—I worked to make sure Mrs. Robb’s side of the conflict read well. I had already determined she was the daughter of a minister; it wasn’t a stretch to show her as educated, well-catechized, and wise. I reworked any dialogue or narrative that smacked of small-mindedness or bigotry. I also legitimized her criticisms of Josiah’s discernment process—she can see his shortcomings. (For the record, I adore Mrs. Robb. She’s one of my favs.)

(3) I brought in other viewpoints, including Molly’s. Molly’s family is Episcopalian, and her late mother had a rich faith life born of redemptive suffering. One of my favorite Molly lines: “Molly never understood why these distinctions mattered. Her mother had taught her that God’s grace was at work in every person who sought Him.” However, Molly’s opinion is decidedly a minority opinion, because…

(4) I set the conversion in its particular historical context. In Pieces opens in 1793, thirteen years after Massachusetts amended its constitution to allow the free practice of religion and two years after the ratification of the Bill of Rights. At the time, once-Puritan Boston was going through a religious upheaval, seen in its new denominational plurality and felt most acutely in the rise of Unitarianism, as church after church renounced “irrational” Trinitarian theology. This was (and is) a big deal. Bostonians of 1793 cared deeply about theological and philosophic principles. We may live in a relativistic age that sees “religion” as antithetical to faith, but not they. That Josiah is an armchair theologian, and that Mrs. Robb is panicking about her son’s unorthodox views, fits the setting.

(5) Finally, I left certain questions unresolved—most importantly, the matter of Josiah’s conversations with his dead father. Was his childhood vision real? Is this wishful thinking, as Mrs. Robb thinks it is? He may very well be delusional. His experience is sketchy even on Catholic grounds, despite Catholicism’s theological framework for private revelation and saintly intercession. The reader is free to interpret things as he will.

Was I successful? Well, at least one reader thought I failed miserably. C’est la vie.

Panning back from my own work, it’s worth asking ourselves what we’re looking for when we read “religious” stories. Do we want to recognize ourselves? Do we seek edification? Affirmation? Knowledge? Understanding? Familiarity? Unfamiliarity? What conflicts and questions are we interested in? Not interested in? Do we like our religion explicit on the page, or kneaded into the story’s dough? Do we not like religion at all? And why are our preferences what they are?

Writers: Are you eager to write about religion, or do you shy away from it? Why? What do you think is the best approach to take?

Have thoughts? Contact me here.

The Stork Delivered

Welcome to the family, Matthias.

 

The only child missing from these pictures is my oldest. I asked him if he’d be willing to pose with Matthias for a picture, and he replied, “No thanks, Mom. I don’t need to see that.” (If you know him, then you’ll know why this strikes me as funny.)

 
Birthday Lights
 
 

This is a happy story.

Our autistic eleven-year-old son and I have had a years-long ongoing battle over lights. Not every evening, but often enough, he will go through the house and turn off the lamps so that he can sit in the dark. Meanwhile, the other six people in the house prefer the lights on. Cue the battle and echolalia script to convince him to turn lamps back on—at least a few of them.

As I write this, it’s 6:30 a.m and he has been up for a while. Not long ago, he came into our bedroom with a, “Mom! Mom! Can you get up now?”

“Sure.”

I eased my thirty-eight week, grand multipara geriatric pregnant self from the bed as he rushed me along, and I followed him downstairs. I waddled into the living room to discover that every. single. light. in the house was on, including random ones like the wall sconces.

He waved his hand around the room. “I turned on the lights!”

Immediately I understood why he wanted me to come downstairs. I pulled him into a hug and kissed his cheek. (He always resists physical affection, but I did it anyway.) “Yes, I see. This is very thoughtful of you.”

He said a bit more about the process of turning on the lights, and which lights. Then he said, “Today is April 9th!”

“Yes.”

“And it’s Saturday!”

“Yes.”

“And you know what that means?”

I did, but I went through the Q-and-A anyway. “What does that mean, Ben?”

“It’s your birthday!”

He turned on the lights for my birthday.

Best birthday gift ever.

When I Fall
 
 

I’ve never been one for adopting a “word of the year"—not because I’m opposed to the idea, but because I usually forget my assigned word. But when Jen Fulwiler’s Word Generator spit this out for me…

 
 

…I knew there was something to it.

Fall has ominous overtones. No one likes to fall down, and the word is visually too close to fail for comfort. But the two words have different etymologies: the first is Germanic, the second Latinate, and their Proto-Indo-European roots are different. To fall is not to fail—not when the landing is exactly where we need to be.

The past several days have been rough. Parenting struggles, author struggles, and mental health struggles have converged into a perfect storm, and I would be lying if I said I was handling it well. No, I owe a visit to my old friend, Mr. Confessional. He’s always happy to see me, even if I’m not always happy to see him.

 

Molteni Giuseppe, La confessione. Wikimedia Commons.

 

“I do not understand my own actions,” St. Paul says in his letter to the Romans. “For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate” (7:15). Not only am I powerless over other people and external circumstances, but I am powerless over my own carnality.

I cannot fix others. I can’t even fix myself.

But as St. Paul teaches and as we hear echoed in many places, powerlessness has a paradoxical relationship to hope. Powerlessness is the pivot point between willfulness and willingness. Almighty God can and does work miracles in my life, but He waits for my permission. God is a gentleman; He does not force Himself upon those who do not want Him. He will let me flounder until I realize I need Him. And when I do—when I fall—He works His miracles.

Forty Thoughts for Forty Years

This is 40. Happy birthday to me.

Forty Thoughts for Forty Years

1. Forty feels like twenty-five, but with creaky, achy hip joints.

2. I used to think that turning forty would come with guru rights, that I would have accumulated a sufficient store of wisdom and would finally be old enough for people to take me seriously. Still waiting on my Guru Card to arrive…maybe it’s lost in the mail…can’t trust USPS these days…

3. I suppose now would be a good time to start living memento mori.

4. Does every forty-year-old drink two pots of coffee a day?

5. My skin and hair are starting to go the way of all flesh. My blonde hair hides grey strands well, and its coarse thickness hides the thinning spots. But my wrinkles and creases are far more obvious. Thank you, bad English genes.

6. I’ve come to realize that I will never read all the books on our bookshelves. I’m okay with that.

7. Corollary: Neither do I need to read to impress other people, though sometimes I still think I do.

8. “Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity…”

9. I just discovered and opened my birthday card from my husband and parents. They are gifting me a writing retreat. I may have teared up. Thanks, hon. Thanks, Mom and Dad.

10. Breakfast conversations: I brought up the loss of youth. My husband countered with the observation that I’m now coming into my own.

11. I married a good man.

12. I’ve been giving some thought to continuing education. I’m not exactly twiddling my thumbs here; between writing, editing, and parenting, going back to school would be impossible at present. Yet I wonder if I would benefit from more formal instruction. And if so, in what? Reread the Great Books? (My alma mater, St. John’s, is now offering their masters program online.) Pursue an MFA? Professional editing? Take some undergraduate history classes on Hope College’s dime? (Thank you, faculty benefits.)

13. Conversely, would school be a prime example of Resistance, per Steven Pressfield’s The War of Art?

14. My childhood: LPs and cassettes, Carebears, Rainbow Brite, the Smurfs, Mario Bros. and Duck Hunt, the Babysitters Club, Coke bottle glasses, crying every time a boy teased me with, “Help Me, Rhonda.”

15. My middle school years: soccer sandals and scrunched-up crew socks, Hootie and the Blowfish, feeling awkward. 

16. My high school years: the INTERNET (!), flared jeans, thick-soled shoes, First Church of God youth group, The Depot Cafe, high school newspaper, AP History, Jane Austen, “Isn’t it ironic? Don’t you think?,” track and field, Dawson’s Creek, feeling awkward.

17. My college years: Great Books, discovering that I never learned how to read, waltz parties, prodigal daughter come home.

18. Not to start an argument, but…Gen Y is the best generation.

19. My cousin, who is six weeks younger than me, already has two grandchildren.

20. Letting that sink in…

21. The older I grow, the less birthdays are about me. The person who comes first to mind is my mother. I was a ten-pound baby with a big head. She is five foot two. I nearly killed her.

22. Speaking of…  

23. To NFP or not to NFP, that is the question. THIS IS MY LAST SHOT, PEOPLE.

24. Is it a question?

25. Apparently?

26. #Problems

27. “‘I know your works, your toil and your patient endurance, and how you cannot bear evil men but have tested those who call themselves apostles but are not, and found them to be false; I know you are enduring patiently and bearing up for my name’s sake, and you have not grown weary. But I have this against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first…’” (Rev. 2:2-4).

28. Until the last decade, my parents struggled to make ends meet. My mother-in-law worked three jobs. My husband and I own a small-but-lovely old home, two vehicles in good shape, and we have an emergency fund. We aren’t living the high life, but neither do we lack for anything. Our children do not know what financial struggle looks like. In its stead, I pray we teach them simplicity, frugality, and generosity.

29. If I never eat canned vegetables again, I will die a happy woman.

30. I’ve misplaced (lost?) my ability to enjoy movies. The medium overwhelms me—too intense a sensory experience, too taxing to my imagination. My brain can hold only so many stories at one time. Between the books I’m writing, the books I’m editing, the books I’m acquiring, and the books I’m reading, I’ve reached the point of gluttony. Anything else and I might vomit.

31. My ADHD has gotten worse with age.

32. I like hugs from my babes.

33. I also enjoy coffee talk (Kawfee Tawk) with my friends.

34. I used to be an excellent housekeeper. Now, I’m lucky that things are sanitary. My five children are expert house destroyers, and I have more important things to do than clean up after them.

35. After sixteen years of marriage, I’ve almost learned how to disagree with my husband and be okay with it.

36.  Almost.

37. I may buy a hat—a real hat, a churchgoing hat. Why? Because I’m forty and I can do things like wear hats, if I so please. Who’s going to stop me?

38. A straw cloche to start? A 1920s/30s-style hat would complement my bobbed hair.

39. Maybe I’ll buy some vintage-inspired shoes to match. Again, who’s going to stop me? Current fashion dictates I pull my high school wardrobe out of storage… been there, done that, no desire to go back. Embracing middle-age with middle-aged style!

40. Raising my coffee cup to forty blessed years. Here’s to many more.

PersonalRhonda Ortiz